Tuesday, June 26, 2007
everything is finished between me and her. friends encouraged me to call her and talk things out. at first i was so afraid she will reject my calls but in the end i didn't care. i called her and in the end she finally picked up my phone calls.
so i explain things to her and begged her to return, but she said everything is too late. why she didn't want to give me a chance to prove? i willing to give up everything for her and i willing to change!
but she's so heartless towards me... i agree in the past was my fault... i took her for granted but i've never ever took your LOVE for granted! i know i'm a very bad bf that always makes you sad or cry but i love you the most!
i hate my attitude so much! i was so bad towards her whenever i was angry... yes for this is my fault... she told me alot that night saying that i didn't give her any freedom. maybe she was right, i never give her any freedom...
why did i choose to call her that night? because i couldn't sleep at all until i must hear from her saying that she don't love me anymore. and yes in the end she says that... before that i asked her if she fall for anyone? she says NO. but today 260607 she is attached.
220607 is the date we break off... hais! i'm totally not myself that night during on the phone with her. i just don't understand why... what's happening to me? in the past i wouldn't do this all just because of a girl but now?
i feel so blank this few days without her... wondering how is she doing and so on... right now i can't even describe how i feel... i mean how can she find herself another so fast? it's just only 4 days ago and she can completely forgotten everything about us and start a new life with her new boy?
no matter what i will wish her the best because i care! although i hate her but i just can't put her down yet. yah maybe it takes time but she will forever remain in my heart although our r/s is just only 2 months 14 days.
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